We went to the hematologist yesterday. They need to run more testing. According to the tests ran two weeks ago, our son does clot moderately slower than expected. They’re not sure why and the additional tests will hopefully provide some insight. Depending on the cause it may be easy to manage. I didn’t ask questions about what we’d need to do if it wasn’t easy. I don’t want to know unless I need to know.
It’s been tough for me because I wanted to believe I was wrong. I wanted with all my heart to believe I was paranoid and I had been nagging nurses to hold the gauze a little longer and check before they put the bandaid on after removing an IV for no reason. I wasn’t wrong. I’ve known for a long time he had this issue and while I chided the nurses to be cautious, I still denied to myself that there was a real problem.
I keep telling myself, “it’s good to know.” Realistically, my heart is hurting. My baby already has Noonan’s Syndrome which was difficult to diagnose because it was a mutation and not inherited. I don’t want another diagnosis. I want to focus on helping him have as normal a life as possible considering the obstacles he’s already facing.